Life Update

The pivot is real.

As the time keeps ticking along, I sit here in my local coffee shop pondering where I am now and what direction I am heading.

I spend the majority of time at home, yet changing up my environment has become increasingly important as I show up with intention. Working from home has a lot of advantages like comfy clothes, loud music, and puppy dog cuddles. However, distractions are plentiful; making it soooo easy to feed my old procrastinating tendencies. Being in a public place where I can plug into other people's energy and be seen helps me to be more aware of my actions rather than remain on the auto pilot habits that I am learning to change.

After a whirlwind winter and spring, I have landed in a space of integration. This is the actual application of the knowledge I have ravenously inhaled through my rediscovered love for learning. I have been an uncontrollable vacuum at times, sucking up all the systems and new ways of being that I get dizzy from the pressure. Accepting that it is impossible to know everything has been a humbling experience, one in which I continue to revisit.

There are so many things that I have studied as I shift into a new direction. Though I have my previous formal education and numerous client experiences to help my navigate, everything is different now. My worldview has changed and it is impossible to go back to the way things used to be.

My passion for self-discovery, emotional states, and various archetypal systems will be, from this point on, infused into every health and lifestyle method I create and use in my own life. This is the true arena for learning; your individual experience.

Why did this shift occur? Well besides the obvious above average levels of chaos, I was already in the space of leaning into the essentials; who I am and the things that really matter to me.

As much as doing alllllll the activities continues to be idealized, I've begun to question what is mine and what is not. This means separating from the conditioning of my upbringing and the societal norms that run on a continuous loop, much like the ticking of a clock or humming of a fridge.

I am becoming increasingly aware of my state in neutral, what I bring to the spaces I enter and in the interactions I have. I realized that I could, in fact, make choices that reflect the lifestyle I want for myself based on my individual desire, and how I want to feel beyond what others might expect of me.

I started pulling apart the ways in which I hold myself up to and compare myself to these standards of "normal".

• Who are you at your core?

• What rules do you place on yourself?

• What am you holding onto that you need to let go of?

I had started to pay attention to aspects beyond what I perceived the physical world to be and it has pretty well consumed me.

For the first time in my life, I have bought books AND have actually read them.

The label of "lazy" has morphed into "rest".

I wonder how I managed to go for so long without properly disconnecting from all the people in my life. Sure I have my partner, family and a few close friends but that was nothing compared to the years of coworkers, roommates, clients, and classes that I had been powering through for the better part of a decade.

Always being non-stop on the go meant that I hadn't actually set a vision for myself, fully committed to my, or even the full enjoyment of my life.

The truth is, I needed that continued contrast of nothing to reset my system. It has helped to establish a baseline founded on my own needs/wants/desires.

Now, these are some pretty big ideas that I am throwing out onto this page. It feels strange to assume that other people have an interest in the inner workings of my life and experiences. And yet, I am grounded in the fact that this is not really for you.

It's for me.

I will never really know what your interpretation of these words; what projections you have already placed on me showing up in this way, speaking to what I have uncovered for myself and what I have yet to discover. That is actually a big part of creating this; to remind myself that I am not for everyone. Those who are not interested in my perspective will probably not be reading this.

Accompanied by an open mind and heart; the only lens I have is my own.

I have very much enjoyed submerging myself into so many new ways of communicating and various systems to connect, understand, and empathize with others experiences.

As much as I love looking at my own life, I am very passionate about guiding others to connect with joy and remember their Whole Self.

• How do you want to live out your life?

• What lights you up?

• Why do you do the things that you do?

I love creating space for you to feel yourself at you core and support you in moving what is stagnant and opening what is closed.

You are an ever evolving being, who is here to enjoy the nature that is you, in motion and stillness, based on your unique gifts and areas of learning.

If you feel called to Go Deeper I would love to be the Catalyst for your Mutation!